Facebook Deactivated

Can see the title,it finally happened..It's not because i am a coward to face all those things she post everytime after an argument..It's because i had enough..It's always the same thing..1) quarrel, 2)she ask for time to cool down, 3)say sorry to me the next day, 4) followed by the lecture..  To be frank,i really cannot stand point 4.Why must she lecture me after everything

Looking back,after i was broken by Erin aka babylurve during 2008, then comes the vietnam virus..the journey was hard,but i had my share of fun too..I suddenly met "princess",i felt that the time was right..i dun want to say wat she thinks..i have no right too..for me,it's real..i felt me and her were like going at 200km/h..It's just happen so fast..i have to stress it's my point of view..I really loved her..i trashed my past and i really want to settle down with her..

After the night she first kissed me,i tot it was over.We had the gathering the next day..I would say the gathering was great..after the gathering,we were drinking,holding hands..I am happy..i really do...after that day,we have our ups and downs too..i can see she is beginning to show her imperfect side.hey,i believe no one is perfect..I do give in..I give in because i do care and love her. It was lecture after lecture after each quarrel..ya i know she is under stress from work..i give in again..

i do have my fair stress of work too..the company's saga have not been solved yet..But i dare to fucking swear that i never ever brought that into our relationship..i am strong enough to handle this shit,although she always said i was weak..so be it..i am tired to prove whos strong whos weak..I don't think anyone could make a comeback like wat i did after my poly drop out saga..

She always say i am very 辛苦 just being with her. She maybe right.but becos i do love her so this does not matter..but always use this phase against me.of cos i get pissed..

I always treasure the happy times i had with her..i hate to quarrel with her. This blog serves as the place to really wrack things out..Since my facebook is gone.Hope this place can prevent me from getting insane..haha..The good things she left inside me..i won't be broken so easy like the past.She's a strong willed lady..i am glad i got some of the strong willed from her..I am more then ready to face the company's saga..But thats not the point..I do miss her a lot..My best friend said,if u wanna text her,u wanna meet her,go ahead..I am so happy i had my best friend around..she understands me so very well..but this moment,i dun want to text her..I can't sleep well,i can't get drunk,i am always worried bot her..(the princess).

I am sorry to my parents,i know they cared..i cant sleep well,drink a lot everynight and i know they are worried..they know i am physically getting weaker by the alcohol abuse every night..i am truly sorry to them..But this is just me..

i dun know wat will happen in the future..maybe without facebook i be a better person..dun need to spent my time now and then to check it..one thing for sure,i haven lose faith in spore girls just because of this..in the past i will..SEE? i am different,but she will never know..Till next time..